As I said yesterday, this year I really want to make my life just a little more cherpy and cheerful. 2013 was just as horrendous as 2012, 2011 and 2010. I've finally decided I don't want my private life making my life feel so sad and emotional. I really want to be that person who is always happy and doesn't let any little thing get them down, not the person who has a smile on their face so everyone thinks they are okay.
Overall in my private life, relationships and such - 2012 and 2013 really were awful. I'm pretty much done with relationships and love for a while yet. I'm going to focus on the things that make me happy in life. My blogging, my fashion and now making lots of new things with my Sewing machine. Getting a sewing machine for Christmas really has made me decide I want to start making my own clothes - its a new lease of life. It could even turn into a business one day (wouldn't that be fantastic!).
I never usually have a motto but this year that's going to change alongside other things but here is my new motto...
"Happy clothes, makes a happy me - who can be sad when wearing happy beautiful clothes!"
I will stick to this! Sure, I will have a few moments, but now I won't have as many - I want to feel fantastic in myself, without people's criticism hurting me. I'm going to focus on blogging and modelling and being my typical ditsy self - but most of all I'm going to focus on being happy!
I've also adjusted my blogging schedule to try and fit round my new lifestyle routine with going down the gym and that. Two posts will go up each week
Wednesday will remain as OOTW'S
Saturday's will be a post about any topic!
So what's your new years resolution? Do you believe in them? Write in the comments below to tell me!
Billions of Love
Emma Victoria
xoxoxox
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Thursday, 2 January 2014
Friday, 18 October 2013
Body Confidence Week!
Well, this week has been Body Confidence Week and what better way to promote this then showing you my figure. I was originally going to do this post at the beginning of the week, but honestly, I didn't have the guts. It was only when my friend and photographer Eddie said to me "Its Body Confidence Week for Christ sake Emma!" until then I didn't realise how stupid I really was being.
I have also faced a fear by taking this picture - I haven't worn a swimsuit in 2, nearly 3 years because they are so figure hugging, and I was always worried I would be judged - so here goes...
I use to be super self-conscious and always wore frumpy clothes cause I hated my figure and here I am now facing my fear of wearing a swimsuit and posing in front of a camera.
I Hate:
My thighs
My tummy
My Butt
My Boobs
My Back
My Neck
But I'm beautiful. It shouldn't matter what anyone says about my figure, or my boobs or my butt, or what size jeans I take. Nothing else matters. You can be a size 6 and be beautiful and curvy, you can be a size 26 and you will still be beautiful and curvy! Beautiful is not and never will be defined as a number.
Never let anyone tell you that you have to be a certain size to be considered beautiful or perfect - a) beauty isn't a number b) there is no such thing as perfect in society; perfection is in the eye of the beholder.
So what's your biggest body fear? Why don't you face it? Why should it matter what anyone else thinks?
Have you ever compared your figure to someone else's and wish you had there's instead of your own? WHY?! Okay, I admit, I have done this many times in my life, and sometimes I do wish I could trade my "well-known" and curvaceous boobs and booty for something a little smaller - but they are part of me and what people recognise me as. I'm learning to love my body, yeah it's not easy and you can't just change your outlook of yourself as quick as a flash, but you can start by making small changes.
Here's a task if you struggle with seeing yourself as beautiful. Everyday look in the mirror - and you MUST pick one good thing about yourself, whether its your eyes, your hair, anything and then write it down, fold it up and put it in a box. In one month, open this box up and look at all the things you have written down. Or even better, get your friends to write things down into a box anonymously and read all the beautiful aspects about yourself!
You are beautiful no matter what anyone says or thinks - if I can bare myself to you, then you can do it for yourself!
Lots of love
Emma Victoria
xoxox
P.S - Make sure you like my Facebook page and follow my blog. I will be having a 50 follower giveaway and I need 13 more followers (on GFC) to launch this giveaway!
P.P.S - Only just noticed the cuts on my legs in the second picture - but hey, proves no one is perfect!
I have also faced a fear by taking this picture - I haven't worn a swimsuit in 2, nearly 3 years because they are so figure hugging, and I was always worried I would be judged - so here goes...
I use to be super self-conscious and always wore frumpy clothes cause I hated my figure and here I am now facing my fear of wearing a swimsuit and posing in front of a camera. I Hate:
My thighs
My tummy
My Butt
My Boobs
My Back
My Neck
But I'm beautiful. It shouldn't matter what anyone says about my figure, or my boobs or my butt, or what size jeans I take. Nothing else matters. You can be a size 6 and be beautiful and curvy, you can be a size 26 and you will still be beautiful and curvy! Beautiful is not and never will be defined as a number.
Never let anyone tell you that you have to be a certain size to be considered beautiful or perfect - a) beauty isn't a number b) there is no such thing as perfect in society; perfection is in the eye of the beholder.
So what's your biggest body fear? Why don't you face it? Why should it matter what anyone else thinks?
Have you ever compared your figure to someone else's and wish you had there's instead of your own? WHY?! Okay, I admit, I have done this many times in my life, and sometimes I do wish I could trade my "well-known" and curvaceous boobs and booty for something a little smaller - but they are part of me and what people recognise me as. I'm learning to love my body, yeah it's not easy and you can't just change your outlook of yourself as quick as a flash, but you can start by making small changes.
Here's a task if you struggle with seeing yourself as beautiful. Everyday look in the mirror - and you MUST pick one good thing about yourself, whether its your eyes, your hair, anything and then write it down, fold it up and put it in a box. In one month, open this box up and look at all the things you have written down. Or even better, get your friends to write things down into a box anonymously and read all the beautiful aspects about yourself!
You are beautiful no matter what anyone says or thinks - if I can bare myself to you, then you can do it for yourself!
Lots of love
Emma Victoria
xoxox
P.S - Make sure you like my Facebook page and follow my blog. I will be having a 50 follower giveaway and I need 13 more followers (on GFC) to launch this giveaway!
P.P.S - Only just noticed the cuts on my legs in the second picture - but hey, proves no one is perfect!
Sunday, 23 June 2013
Weekly Overview; 23rd June!
Today is probably going to amount of doing next to nothing! Oh, and sitting out on the decking and enjoy the sun (well, what we have of it!) I might also be planning on doing a video soon on my YouTube!
Monday First of all, I have to go to my brothers clinic as he has to have botox in his legs (he is quadriplegic and he can't walk, so he has botox to help relax the muscles in his legs to make day to day things like standing in his stander and walking in his frame a little bit easier). Afterwards, I will go to college for my media lesson, and then come home to pack! I will also bed doing my OOTW on monday, because I won't be able to tomorrow!
Tuesday I get a lay in, as I'm not working Monday Night for a change! I have college from, 10.40 -12, however, I'm not sure if it's on as we had an email saying our teacher may not be there! After this, I am then going to Guildford! Not really the most exciting thing in the world, but I have to meet my dad at his work around 3 o'clock as we are driving up to Blackpool as we are going to stay with my aunt. I should be getting to Guildford around 2-2.30 and my dad and me will be leaving at 3.30-4, so if anyone has any suggestions what I can do, I'd be super grateful!
Wednesday I am really not looking forward to today... Today is the day I have to say goodbye to my Great Aunt Grace who my family sadly lost on the 11th June. The funeral is in Burnley, so I will be with my family all today, and travelling back home in the evening. Today will be very emotional and a hard today to go through.
Thursday Today I will be working from 12-5, so a short day to be relatively honest! And after I will come home and just relax, and do nothing, except sleep!
Friday I have a lay in as my work don't need me in today, so I am just going for lunch with my lovely band to discuss set lists, songs, and new songs we have written. Afterwards, I will just come home and relax and maybe take my dog for a walk to just take things off my mind!
Saturday I've no idea what I have planned yet, I know I'm not working, so it may just be a day at home relaxing again and just to get little jobs done!
Its another one of them weeks, when not much is really going on, however it will be very emotional, so relaxation will be needed. Stay tuned for next week's weekly update! Its nearly the end of June! Which means, July is nearly round the corner and so is my 18th Birthday on the 12th July!
Lots of Love
Emma Victoria
xoxo
Sunday, 16 June 2013
Weekly Overview; June 16th & Life Update!
Hello you lovely lot!
Its that time of the week again, where I will tell you all about my forthcoming week, but its also time for a life update (we aren't including my episode of Horror Wednesday, which you can read here if you really want to!).
Today - Well seeing as its Father's Day, I'm being kept super busy. My gifts which I ordered (over a week ago!) still haven't turned up *sigh*. But I am cooking my dad Dinner tonight (a Chicken Makhani Curry - thank you Hairy Bikers Cookbook for saving my butt). I have already cut the grass today, which has fired up my hayfever, and then I need to do some boring singing training stuff, cause I'm trying to recover my voice and get it back to its normal self before next weekend! Exciting!
Monday First of all, I get a lay-in... yay! I'll probably get up at 9am (that's a lay in for me so shh!) and cut the front lawn, then I will probably mope around, have a shower and get ready for college at 2, with my favourite teacher Lisa! I finish at 3.20 but won't get home until 5pm, cause public transport really hates me. Then I have my dreaded singing lesson! I won't be able to talk much of Tuesday, so that should be super interesting.
Tuesday Well, the original plan was for college, but considering little old me fell ill with pneumonia last year so I need to go to hospital and see my doctor for my check-up to see how my lungs are functioning! After I will probably mope around at home and do absolutely nothing.
Wednesday I have to get up at 5am, UGH. Too much effort is required for this, but I have to do it, so no point complaining I guess! I have college from 9am-12pm, and my mum will be picking me up cause I completely forget that I don't get home till 2pm with public transport and I booked a driving lesson for 1.30... Good one. And then afterwards, I will be going on a DATE. Yup, an actual date, with a guy. (All shall be explained in the life update below!).
Thursday I am working, from 6am - 12pm, and then college from 12.30 -1.50! The joys of being a working student... Afterwards, I have band rehearsal! Yup, a 3 hour rehearsal for a big gig Saturday night! I will probably come home, have a sandwich, and again have an early night's sleep. Also, I begin doing my gig prep, so that means no alcohol, or no dairy products until Saturday!
Friday I get a lift to college and back home! College is from 10.40 till 12 which hopefully means we will be looking at the Stray Cats and Polecats in media (fingers crossed!). Today will just be another day of resting my voice as much as I possibly can.
Saturday Today will be spent driving to London and setting up, to perform at a Rockabilly wedding! We have been hired by the lovely Claire and Rick to perform at their wedding reception, which is around 250 people! Claire saw us live when we performed way back in December at the local Social Club in front of a tiny crowd no more then around 40 people. So, we really can't thank the lovely couple enough for asking us to play!
Now, with the weekly overview over and done with I can update you all about my life! Okay so lets start with the fact that since around July last year, I've not felt happy once, I never saw a point to anything and can't even name one time within that period to around last week when I was happy. After, all my friends nagging me, I finally went to the doctors, it was when I was told I was depressed. Me being, typically me, I thought 'there is no way I'm depressed, other people have problems far worse then mine and cope absolutely fine' my doctor who was super concerned cause this has gone on for a while, and for the fact I have a moderate form of Severe depression, he wants to nail it now, before I get any "worse". So last week I went to my counsellor for the third time, and now that he has finally got me to actually talk about my problems, I can begin to move forward. Many of you know from previous life posts (just look through the blog) that I really don't have much luck with relationships and the fact I have felt hurt by this one person for months. I am so happy to admit, I have moved on. For me, this is a huge step forward to be happy again and over these past 2 weeks, I'm beginning to feel happy again! I have only spoken to the guy who has hurt me, twice over the past 2 weeks, which is a huge achievement to before when I struggled to go a day without talking to him. I also stuck to my guns, and sticking by my word and not giving in all the time and always feeling like I need to apologise to make everything 'okay' with everyone, when it really isn't. I also saw my best friend Charlie again after going months without seeing her! Now, I have also started dating a lovely chap, who also loves rockabilly and is passionate about playing the double bass. However, for now, I want to keep things private and between us, until we are ready to go public about it all! Being back at college is helping me a great deal, especially with my great aunt passing away last Tuesday. There will be ups and downs however, I'm not afraid to admit that I was depressed BUT now I am getting better, its only up from here!
I'm sorry for the super long post, but part of my recovery is to admit to other people that I was depressed, not only to myself. If you ever want to talk about things, no matter how silly it is, please just leave me a message in the comments or via my blog email (anchorsawaybeauty@hotmail.com).
Billions of Love!!
Emma Victoria
xoxo
Its that time of the week again, where I will tell you all about my forthcoming week, but its also time for a life update (we aren't including my episode of Horror Wednesday, which you can read here if you really want to!).
Monday First of all, I get a lay-in... yay! I'll probably get up at 9am (that's a lay in for me so shh!) and cut the front lawn, then I will probably mope around, have a shower and get ready for college at 2, with my favourite teacher Lisa! I finish at 3.20 but won't get home until 5pm, cause public transport really hates me. Then I have my dreaded singing lesson! I won't be able to talk much of Tuesday, so that should be super interesting.
Tuesday Well, the original plan was for college, but considering little old me fell ill with pneumonia last year so I need to go to hospital and see my doctor for my check-up to see how my lungs are functioning! After I will probably mope around at home and do absolutely nothing.
Wednesday I have to get up at 5am, UGH. Too much effort is required for this, but I have to do it, so no point complaining I guess! I have college from 9am-12pm, and my mum will be picking me up cause I completely forget that I don't get home till 2pm with public transport and I booked a driving lesson for 1.30... Good one. And then afterwards, I will be going on a DATE. Yup, an actual date, with a guy. (All shall be explained in the life update below!).
Thursday I am working, from 6am - 12pm, and then college from 12.30 -1.50! The joys of being a working student... Afterwards, I have band rehearsal! Yup, a 3 hour rehearsal for a big gig Saturday night! I will probably come home, have a sandwich, and again have an early night's sleep. Also, I begin doing my gig prep, so that means no alcohol, or no dairy products until Saturday!
Friday I get a lift to college and back home! College is from 10.40 till 12 which hopefully means we will be looking at the Stray Cats and Polecats in media (fingers crossed!). Today will just be another day of resting my voice as much as I possibly can.
Saturday Today will be spent driving to London and setting up, to perform at a Rockabilly wedding! We have been hired by the lovely Claire and Rick to perform at their wedding reception, which is around 250 people! Claire saw us live when we performed way back in December at the local Social Club in front of a tiny crowd no more then around 40 people. So, we really can't thank the lovely couple enough for asking us to play!
Now, with the weekly overview over and done with I can update you all about my life! Okay so lets start with the fact that since around July last year, I've not felt happy once, I never saw a point to anything and can't even name one time within that period to around last week when I was happy. After, all my friends nagging me, I finally went to the doctors, it was when I was told I was depressed. Me being, typically me, I thought 'there is no way I'm depressed, other people have problems far worse then mine and cope absolutely fine' my doctor who was super concerned cause this has gone on for a while, and for the fact I have a moderate form of Severe depression, he wants to nail it now, before I get any "worse". So last week I went to my counsellor for the third time, and now that he has finally got me to actually talk about my problems, I can begin to move forward. Many of you know from previous life posts (just look through the blog) that I really don't have much luck with relationships and the fact I have felt hurt by this one person for months. I am so happy to admit, I have moved on. For me, this is a huge step forward to be happy again and over these past 2 weeks, I'm beginning to feel happy again! I have only spoken to the guy who has hurt me, twice over the past 2 weeks, which is a huge achievement to before when I struggled to go a day without talking to him. I also stuck to my guns, and sticking by my word and not giving in all the time and always feeling like I need to apologise to make everything 'okay' with everyone, when it really isn't. I also saw my best friend Charlie again after going months without seeing her! Now, I have also started dating a lovely chap, who also loves rockabilly and is passionate about playing the double bass. However, for now, I want to keep things private and between us, until we are ready to go public about it all! Being back at college is helping me a great deal, especially with my great aunt passing away last Tuesday. There will be ups and downs however, I'm not afraid to admit that I was depressed BUT now I am getting better, its only up from here!
I'm sorry for the super long post, but part of my recovery is to admit to other people that I was depressed, not only to myself. If you ever want to talk about things, no matter how silly it is, please just leave me a message in the comments or via my blog email (anchorsawaybeauty@hotmail.com).
Billions of Love!!
Emma Victoria
xoxo
Thursday, 13 June 2013
What Could've Gone Wrong... Went Wrong.
Wednesday could have been one of the worst day's I've had in a while. To begin with, I had the devastating and sad news my Great Aunt Grace passed away, even though she was 90, it doesn't make getting over it any easier. So that automatically put a downer on the day along with the rain storm and having to wake up at 5am. *Sigh*.
When getting off the bus, I made a complete idiot of myself, with the floor of the bus being absolutely drenched, I managed to slip and hit my head against one of the poles on the bus. However, I had a lovely gentlemen, who restored my belief there are still gentlemen in this world! He got up, not to get off, to help me up and offered to pay for a taxi for me to get to Lewes so I wouldn't have to catch the train. How sweet, huh?! Being the independent lady I am, I decided it's better if I just walk it off and get the train to save myself from any more embarrassment.
To be quite honest, college went okay apart from the fact I kept yawning and my phone kept vibrating in my bag cause people kept calling me! Everything was going so well, until... I started walking to the bus stop in Lindfield. I get the train to Haywards Heath from Lewes, but because my train times and bus times don't work very well, I walk to Lindfield and catch the bus back home from there... Well just over halfway to Lindfield, the strap on my floral satchel bag (which you can see in my creative for college OOTW here) snapped. Yup, it just snapped off the side of the bag... So, now I had to walk in a dress, in the heavy rain, with my bag looking like a homeless person carrying all my belongings. I then in that time managed to lose my bus pass! It really wasn't my day!
After getting in, I then did myself some dinner (yup, I am counting a tuna and sweetcorn sandwich as dinner) and after thinking 'I can just get into bed and everything will be fine' the bulb in my lampshade decided to blow...
Going back to my satchel strap snapping, I'm super unhappy about this, mainly because all I had in my bag was an empty folder, 3 pens, a small paper writing pad, and my purse... So nothing too heavy. This was the LYDC Floral Satchel bag, and to be quite honest after only using this bag for 3 days, and then it breaking, its really put me off buying another one of their products. I bought this bag for around £25, for then it to break after a little bit of weight in the bag, I am super upset.
Lets hope the rest of the week can only get better??
Tomorrow I shall be posting up my next budget beauty buy so please keep an eye out for that on my blog and twitter! I will also be writing a guest blog post on Stephanie Maverick's blog, so also keep an eye out for that on her blog!
Much Love
Emma Victoria
xoxo
When getting off the bus, I made a complete idiot of myself, with the floor of the bus being absolutely drenched, I managed to slip and hit my head against one of the poles on the bus. However, I had a lovely gentlemen, who restored my belief there are still gentlemen in this world! He got up, not to get off, to help me up and offered to pay for a taxi for me to get to Lewes so I wouldn't have to catch the train. How sweet, huh?! Being the independent lady I am, I decided it's better if I just walk it off and get the train to save myself from any more embarrassment.
To be quite honest, college went okay apart from the fact I kept yawning and my phone kept vibrating in my bag cause people kept calling me! Everything was going so well, until... I started walking to the bus stop in Lindfield. I get the train to Haywards Heath from Lewes, but because my train times and bus times don't work very well, I walk to Lindfield and catch the bus back home from there... Well just over halfway to Lindfield, the strap on my floral satchel bag (which you can see in my creative for college OOTW here) snapped. Yup, it just snapped off the side of the bag... So, now I had to walk in a dress, in the heavy rain, with my bag looking like a homeless person carrying all my belongings. I then in that time managed to lose my bus pass! It really wasn't my day!
After getting in, I then did myself some dinner (yup, I am counting a tuna and sweetcorn sandwich as dinner) and after thinking 'I can just get into bed and everything will be fine' the bulb in my lampshade decided to blow...
Going back to my satchel strap snapping, I'm super unhappy about this, mainly because all I had in my bag was an empty folder, 3 pens, a small paper writing pad, and my purse... So nothing too heavy. This was the LYDC Floral Satchel bag, and to be quite honest after only using this bag for 3 days, and then it breaking, its really put me off buying another one of their products. I bought this bag for around £25, for then it to break after a little bit of weight in the bag, I am super upset.
Lets hope the rest of the week can only get better??
Tomorrow I shall be posting up my next budget beauty buy so please keep an eye out for that on my blog and twitter! I will also be writing a guest blog post on Stephanie Maverick's blog, so also keep an eye out for that on her blog!
Much Love
Emma Victoria
xoxo
Thursday, 28 March 2013
I Am Not Afraid To Walk This World Alone...
Hello my beauties! If you follow me on my Facebook or Twitter you will know that I have been away this week, hence why I haven't been blogging and the merry month of March has been a month I have been tight with money, so not many hauls to share with you!
However, I really thought I better write to you lovely lot, as you seem to take the time and read my blog, whether its about my beauty and fashion or whether I am feeling deep... Much like I am today.
So you are probably thinking what the title is all about, so let me explain. The past couple of weeks have been hard, and I have had to come to terms with a lot of stuff, I can't say publicly what some of these are, but honestly, they got me down... So lets explain.
Since around mid-February, I felt everything was crashing down around me, I cried, and I did the worst thing possible... Pretend everything was okay, not talk to anyone. I put that smile on my face, not the happy one... The "look happy and no one will realise what's going on inside" smile. Lets explain the title... What made everything much worse, was the fact my favourite band My Chemical Romance split - (if you didn't know many years ago I used to be into rock and heavy rock music and fashion, I wore a lot of black and heavy make-up, super short hair with an emo fringe...) Even though I no longer sported my 'Black Parade' themed fashion, MCR's music has got me through a lot of tough times, to then have them split, broke my heart. The title is lyrics from the chorus of one of my all time favourite MCR songs 'Famous Last Words' ... So, what did I do? I escaped, I ran away and I took everything into perspective. This week I went away to see my lovely friend in Leicester where we both went to see Olly Murs in Cardiff (sidenote; Olly was absolutely outstanding, even if he did rip his trousers and trip on stage.. Twice.) And by getting away from home for 4 days, not confronting the things that got me down, I then had the chance to understand what was happening and going on. Now, I'm back, when I was away, something followed me, and you know what I did? I ignored it. I rose above it. My subconscious became my friend, telling me "Sweetheart, you don't need to do this to yourself. You are better then this, and you are perfect, whether everyone or no one sees that, you are p-e-r-fect".
So my advice for you?
1. Love - If you get down over love, especially at my age, pick your tiara/crown up off the floor, you are young and you have your whole life ahead of you! I know everyone says it, but honestly, you are so young, there are millions of people in the world, and there is someone for everyone, the only things you need to do is focus on is you and make yourself perfect for YOU, nobody else! You are stunning and gorgeous no matter what anyone says! So what you don't have the perfect teeth or the skinny figure with the big boobs and butt, but really, who wants to be a Barbie doll, when you can be you?!
2. Trendsetter - For me especially this is the most important, don't stress if someone does something you uniquely do, its flattery! If someone copies your shoes, your dress, your make-up "your look" see it as a compliment! Maybe they think what you have done is good and they want to give it a go, don't see it as bad! You are the trend setter, be proud of that!
3. Music - Personally, music is a very important part of my life, as said above when MCR split, my heart shattered into a million pieces, but just cause the band split doesn't mean their music won't stop inspiring me and mending my wounds when I'm hurt. Especially now. On Sunday before I went away, I wore my Black Parade jacket, as if it were a bandage to make everything better, and honestly, it was a security blanket. The jacket gave me so much joy and happiness when I was younger and gave me so much inspiration, to which I can only thank MCR for. However, if you are down, my biggest, and maybe most important tip would be, don't listen to sad or depressive songs, they really will only make you feel worse - easier said then done I know (hypocrite of my own words at times, but truth must be told!) Listen to happy songs, that make you feel better! They will cheer you up! Pick a song that has a happy memory to over-ride the bad thought!
4. You are YOU - This is probably the most important tip. Never, EVER, let anyone tell you that you aren't good enough. I have let too many people walk over me, tell me I'm not good enough or I wont be good at something... Prove them damn wrong! You can be whatever you want to do, if you put your heart and soul into it! Never let one person deny you a world of opportunities, and maybe if you are the one with doubt... Prove yourself wrong! 'Cause really, you can do anything you dream of, there really is no limits!
5. Wounds need time - I am a victim of my own crime. Lets say for an example, you accidentally cut yourself with a knife while preparing dinner, the cut won't disappear once it is ran under cold water. Wounds have a process...
- Open wound - this is when the wound is first created, everything around that wound hurts, no matter how much you try to deter it away.
- Protection - Even when you apply a bandage or plaster to the wound, it doesn't make it disappear. It only helps to protect the wound from any more damage that may cause more pain.
- Pain - The wound may sting or be painful, the damage has already been done, there is nothing you can do, everything up till now is uncontrollable...
- Healing - Until now... In my view you can take the healing process in two ways. 1) Positive - You can turn every negative into a positive, you turn everything bad to good. You start with yourself - look happy and be happy. Your appearance can not only reflect your own feelings but can also make an effect on other peoples. Over-ride the bad with the good! 2) Negative - You see everything as bad, and the pain lasts longer then you want it to. You take everything good away from yourself and replace it with bad, healing seems a far far place away from where you are now. You are digging yourself in a hole you can't get out of alone... You need positive to give you a helping hand...
Honestly, these past couple of weeks I've been in a bad horrible place, I won't lie to you. Healing doesn't happen overnight, in fact it can take weeks or months, sometimes it may leave a scar, but even if it does just say to yourself "If it wasn't for this scar, I wouldn't be where I am now". I hate seeing people down and upset, whether I know them or not. I want people to know I am there for them, yeah I'm not a professional at this, but really who is? I learn from my own life experiences, even though everyone's experiences are different, the wounds take the same process to heal. So hold your head up high, things take time, and you have to allow that time to get yourself into that better place.
I want you to know, whether we know each other or not, that I am here for you. I am that shoulder for you to cry on, to try and help you through. Never let someone's words bring you down, they are just words.
And again, the Famous Last Words
"I am not afraid to keep on living, I am not afraid to walk this world alone."
Sending you all lots of love
Emma Victoria
xoxo
Wednesday, 23 January 2013
Looking Back & Changing
Now, every new year, everyone makes a 'New Year's Resolution', and do people usually stick to them? Honestly, they'd like to say yes, but the majority of the time people always give up or even forget about their resolution. However, this year I had 2 resolutions for myself. The first was to keep my second new years resolution, and the second was to lose weight. Now this is probably the most common resolution. I am now into my 23rd Day of my new diet, I last weighed myself last Thursday, and I weighed myself today and I have lost 2lb's. Now, 2012 was a really terrible year for me; my brother had major surgery in January (a year today), I fell ill with pneumonia, kicked out of college,
and many other private issues. The only thing that kept me going was my boyfriend, Ollie; however in November we were both told the heart-breaking news he was moving back to New Zealand. Throughout the year, I began to comfort eat and began not to care about myself or what anyone thought. I locked myself away and wouldn't talk to anyone. But when my boyfriend left the UK, I decided I would change myself for the better, make myself happy. Now I have never really been skinny or slim. But I have tried many diets in the past and just gave up. I now have my own treadmill and cycling bike at home, as well as using 'fun' fitness exercises such as the Wii Fit! I am now doing a calorie control diet, I have 1500 calories (kcal) a day. You can eat what you want, when you want, you just watch your calories! This is working really well for me. I find its the healthiest way to lose weight, losing 1 or 2 pounds a week is healthy. Don't starve yourself, otherwise you will just crave all the time and constantly feel hungry and find yourself wanting to eat even more then before you started the diet!
The thing you need the most during a diet and trying to lose weight, is support and encouragement. Now, I still speak to my now ex Ollie, even though it hurts me emotionally, (its still early stages since he left and we split, be positive and be happy!) But every week we Skype each other, he asks me how my diet is going and if I have lost any weight. Now if I gain for whatever reason, we talk it through about where I went wrong or what happened, and we work and improve on the previous week. Now, in the diet I am doing, it says that if you go wrong one day, forget about it and start again the next day. Don't dwell and give up if you go wrong once, everyone makes mistakes and has slip ups, don't beat yourself up over it!
I am someone who constantly helps people when they need me (even though I am someone who bottles up my emotions when I am upset or sad, just cause I don't want to be judged, another habit I am trying to break, a challenge? A very hard challenge for me.), no matter how small the problem or issue is. I always listen when people need advice or help, I encourage them if they need it. And if you are doing the same as me and have stuck to your goal, or want to lose weight, then be positive, don't let one bad day get you down when there is thousands ahead of you which YOU can make happy! If any of you lovely people need advice, or even just want a little chat, then I am always here to listen and help. You can comment on here or email me on cutecupcakebeauty@hotmail.com
Now, remember, You are amazing and beautiful. When you do something, don't do it for others, do it for yourself. At the end of the day, you are important and should be happy!
Keep Smiling Beautiful!
Emma
xoxo
Emma
xoxo
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